How are you Murphy? I am so miss you, Old days memory was
pop up in my mind. We had our evening jog, play ball, hide and seek. It’s so
fun to have you accompany these 4 years. Thanks you!
Last September you was paralyze out of sudden. I keep
positive on trying my best to let you stand up again. Until 13Jan 2017, you
vomit after dinner stomach was growing big as a ball with full of gas. 16 Jan
Cried whole night long and bark on me for seeks help to release your pain. When
that time, my though was a minor case (probably gastric). After this day you
started unable consume food. No matter how tasty food I cook for you. You only
show respond on your nose “interested to eat” but was not able to consume only keep
on drinking water and bite your teeth with very very hard. 21th Jan, as usual we still continue our weekly
laser treatment on Barbara Shelter which is the last treatment you have. On the
way back from Shelter I sent you to VET . Your weigh getting down from 36KG to
24.4Kg with doing ultrasound and figure out your kidney, liver was terribly
damage destroy by tumor. Its hard time for me. I really really not wish to
accept this news. Too bad, this is time for me to let you go as help to released
your suffered & pain.
This Saturday evening I rejected all my appointment to
accompany you, and gave you the last shower. My heart was extremely pain. Among
this 4 years you with me, this is the most longer shower time both of us have.
I told all the fact to you, played guitar to you. Although your are in
suffering but you still show me your cute smiling face. During the night your appetite
was great.able to consume half of the can foods(good boy!) I bring you to my room and
slept beside me, whole night long you was stair on me, I knew you have tones of
message want to say. Morning sunray is coming out. We have to move out from the
bed room. You was sleep on my legs , and finished your last breakfast with
chicken, pork and your favorite can foods. Bring you to the porch to have
natural air and view. Blackie approach
to you to say good bye. After that we entered back to house for me to prepared to
make you most handsome in the world’s Vet reached our house at 1pm, it’s so
complicated feeling on me. I let you slept on my both legs and it’s time to say
good Bye with you. 13:05pm you go with peacefully in my embrace. Lynn is helped you sent to cremation
at1530.
15hours after you leave.23 Jan, today I waked up at 4am. Unlock
my cellphone, viewed your picture. But too bad I can’t feel and touch you
anymore. Was seat on the place you use to lay on. Touched on your pillow to
seek back the feeling of touching you. I am so worry with your current condition.
Without my accompany, I am sure you are lonely and fearful.
0650am reached office car park. My memory was flash back the
time you admitted Hospital in KL. pain was make you cried during the
journey And every time I travel down from mainland to KL you was so ill and
lonely, always hold my hand and bark to mean ask me don’t leave you alone.
1400pm view out from my office windows. The weather is going
rain, I am worry not sure will you get cold or is any shed for you to stop by
during rain.
1454- its Rain, perhaps you are in crying. I am still have the sense of went back early
from office to take care you at home.
Came back from Work. Your shadows popped out in my mind you were
jumped on me , bite on your favorite red color ball asked to play.too bad, all this great day was not long. i am extremely down.
After you crossed rainbow bridge
you will be fine and good with no pain and happy. But how true its, not one
know.
I apologize to you for any mistake or failure I had make in
past and feel grateful to have you such a Smart & lovely dogs accompany in
my life. My Tears started fall from heart to eyes. Hope you are released and feel
glade Murphy!
